Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Kiss the Bride

I have owned and operated a bridal shop for six years. August of 2008 marked the beginning of my seventh year. Kiss the Bride will be closing our doors. After I had Sophie, my hearts desire was to be a stay at home mama. The first year of her life flew by so fast, I just knew I couldn't miss any more time at home with her. Many months of praying and trying to figure out what to do with the shop, we have come to the decision to close. I have the most incredible peace about it. At first, this was not the answer I was hoping for when we were praying. But God is so good. He is directing our steps, and I don't have one ounce of anxiety of stress about the logistics of closing. This is odd, because for six and a half years I have been filled with more anxiety and worry than I would like to admit. I had a dream and a vision for Kiss the Bride. With my parents hard work and support, my dream became a reality for me. There have been great things, hard lessons, laughter, tears, fun trips to New York, late nights, stressful deadlines, just to name a few.

I don't really know if it was God's will for me to open Kiss the Bride. Honestly, at that time in my life, I was a Christian, but I was dead in Christ. Does this make sense? Looking back, all of the hardships and questions I had these six years were a direct result of the Lord not being my source of strength. Sure, I prayed for Him to come through in certain situations, and He did! That is no surprise. God's amazing grace was all over me, even when I was not "all over Him"! That is what cuts to my core so often. There have been plenty of times that God was an after thought of mine. I never considered how my actions or decisions would make my Jesus so sad. I went about my days oblivious to what God's will was for my life. D.E.A.D. How did I survive using my own judgement? Praise God for new beginnings.

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come.

Galatians 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

I praise you Almighty God for saving me. You have captured my heart. I choose to walk in your truth, and your light. I thank you for the peace you have poured out on my life today. I thank you for your provision, guidance, and the joy you have given me in this decision. I ask you to continue to lead me through the final days of Kiss the Bride.

Psalm 21:1-7
1O Lord, the king rejoices in your strength. How great is his joy in the victories you give!

2You have granted him the desire of his heart and have not withheld the request of his lips.

3You welcomed him with rich blessings and place a crown of pure gold on his head.

4He asked you for life and you gave it to him-length of days forever and ever.

5Through the victories you gave, his glory is great; you have bestowed on him splendor and majesty.

6Surely you have granted him eternal blessings and made him glad with the joy of your presence.

7For the king trusts in the Lord; through the unfailing love of the Most High he will not be shaken.

1 comment:

Jennifer said...

I saw your comment on Kelly's blog and thought I would come over and check your blog out! Your little girl is precious! My husband and I just had a baby in October and we are obcessed with him to say the least!

I think it is wonderful that you are starting this new chapter in your life. I know the Lord will be bless you for seeking his will and being obidient!!!