Thursday, April 15, 2010

I Would Like a Pause Button

Six short months ago Sophie was just starting to put a couple of words together.  She was starting to really find her independence with things like going down the porch steps, and working her toys. She was still extremely dependent on her pacifier and "binkys", and was not even thinking about ditching her diapers.  Exactly four weeks shy of meeting her baby sister, she was still such a baby.  Now, we are potty trained, no paci in sight, and as for the independence- she has taken it to a new level.  I know this is the normal progression for a toddler.  I have often wondered if by becoming a big sister that it kind of speeds things up.  Maybe not, but it just feels like we all of the sudden had this newborn at home, and because Maddie was so tiny and depended on us for every little thing Sophie took on a new roll.  She suddenly looked like she was five years old.  Sometimes I expect too much from her.  In part, because she does exhibit so much independence and determination to do things on her on, and also because I forget that she is still a baby.  I have heard it over and over before, that time flies.  I can now say that I understand that to be so true.  As much fun as it is to watch her grow and learn, I just want to freeze time.  Pause for a little while and savor it.  Experiencing the world through her eyes reminds me to slow down and take it all in.  She brings so much joy and love into our lives.

Recently, she has been experiencing some fear.  Nothing major, just being afraid of the dark, or loud noises she may hear outside.  It is such an eye opener that I need to be more careful about having the tv on just any channel.  I don't even think it she has to be sitting down to watch, but just by passing through the room she can pick up on ANYHTING!  I was trying to ignore her outbursts, trying to not make a big deal about it, but I realized that even though there is really nothing to be afraid of, her feelings are very real to her.  And the feeling of fear is not good.  So, to combat these feelings, anytime she says she is scared I make her repeat Joshua 1:9 "Be strong and courageous.  For the Lord your God is with you wherever you  may go."  She can now fill in the blanks when I start the verse for her.  I actually heard her reciting her own version while she was playing by herself.  It sounded something like this: "Be strong and courageous, for the Lord not afraid".  It amazes me what their little brains soak up.  (I am learning to sew, and this little fish dress was my first solo project.  I was able to finish it from start to finish without asking for help! )

Six months from now, we will celebrate her third birthday.  Who knew it was possible to want to see her grow and mature, and to make time stand still at the same time?  I love her with every ounce of my being.

1 comment:

Giddy said...

Just seeing Sophie and Maddie and hearing Sophie ask where the horses and the chickens are makes me the happiest I can be